While I was 10 years old & younger, I would cry at the slightest thing. Even when my younger sister would cry, seeing someone crying would make me cry. Then, for several years after that, I would hardly cry at anything – no crying sister or sad movie could make me cry. But then the last few years, it’s changed back to crying more easily. Sad movies definitely get to me. And sometimes even…weddings! Yes, while shooting the ceremony sometimes, it’s hard not to get teary; especially if it reminds me of my own wedding (which, I didn’t cry at, at all. Explain that one. I think I was too nervous. Though when I say my mom bawling after the ceremony – she cries really easily – it was hard not to get a bit teary), then it’s really hard not to get tears in my eyes. So sometimes it’s nice to be able to hide the watery eyes & tears behind a camera ;)
This photo to me is now one of my faves. It was the bride’s twin sister. It’s so powerful & touching, and I love it. I just wanted to share it & have an excuse to talk about crying ;) Since that’s what I did last night…after having a really blah day. And a good close talk with my amazing hubby helped me so much to figure out why: I’ve been putting so much of my time & effort into photography..above even trying to be a great wife to David & focusing on our marriage. And so when I hit photography roadblocks…they really slammed me hard!! And I was feeling kinda slammed like that yesterday, and figured out that yes, I was putting to much focus on my business, and feeling overwhelmed too. A good hour of tears later, realizing it was time for me to re-focus. This may mean a few less blogs a month…but not too many less. It’s more the behind-the-scenes kinda stuff. So lots of pretty photos still coming, no worries ;)
Just thought I’d share my struggles as a photographer (and a crier). I’m by far not perfect, but constantly trying to challenge myself to do better, be more Christ-like, encourage others, make sure I’m focused well, have more self-discipline, pray more, and be more open & real. :)
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